Just comfused

I didnt expect to feel this confused today. Started out ok, understanding add maths then just won some anti dadah quiz but as the day went on, somethings i noticed just troubled me and i dunno wat to do. I know changes are going to happen sooner or later. Heck, the onli constant in life is death and change.Maybe i just cant except this cause i like things way they are. Could be i am jelous( its possible i dunno ). And the thing is, i dunno how to overcome this problem. Will someone please help me. I feel so lost. Sigh

Its all over

Finally, report card day is over. Was kinda fun abit cause we didnt do much the whole day. Some ppl played Risk while waiting for their parents. I was content just to help out a few ppl and just watch.When my turn came, stupid pn saik complain bout my writing. =.= " Your handwritting is just like En Tzer ". zzzzzz. Gimme a break, maybe u just aren't looking at it hard enough. Didnt know i improved quite a bit compared to the March exams ^^. Dunno wat will happen next though i aint going for the gotong- royong ( going for wedding, weeeeeee free food haha ). Anyway, i can use this excuse to skip music class (WOHOOOO !!!!!!!!) Everytime i go there i am suffering. Its a mutual hate-hate relationship with my teacher. Both of us cant wait till the class is over. But whatever it is, i love listening to music.

D- day is almost here

This isnt the aniversary of the world war 2 but its report card day tomorrow. Haven told parents my results yet so i dunno what will happen but i am hoping for the best. Got 17 in class which doesnt suck dat badly but it still sux ( still beat the usual ppl ^^ ).

Sigh, life for me right now aint so good as my useless brother is on break from IMU. zzzzzzz. Just cant stand him, he is always so dam bloody annoying. Just wish he could shut up. =.= I seriously feel like whacking him with a baseball bat (not a steel rod, see i am so mercyful ^^ ). Cant wait for his break to be over. Anyway, i am wondering if something is not wrong, does it make it right ???? Tell your opinion. I would appreciate it.

Go Dynamitez you are number 1

Well, Cheer 2007 just ended and although i didnt manage to go there (stuff came up) but am proud to say that Dynamitez got 1st place. Weeeeee !!!!!!! Its a great achievement for us to be recognised as one of the best cheerleaders in the whole country. Anyway, here are some links of some of the videos so those who couldnt make it can still enjoy the performance. Hope you all like it just as much as me ^^ The onli complaint that i have is the costume cause i feel that the black and red looks better. Oh yeah, in the videos you can see our special dynamitez supporters t- shirts (red in colour).

http://videos.thestar.com.my/default.aspx?vid=78

http://videos.thestar.com.my/default.aspx?vid=81

Black belt at last

Well, i started tae kwon do in standard 2 cause Andrew from dj 1 ask me teman him. Dont we all do the stupidest things or funnest thing just to join a fwen. Anyway i would like to thank him for helping get started on this journey. If u are wondering about the cute devil, i bought it in 1-u though ppl say i got conned but i still think its cool.

Had the pj fitness test for running (obviously i am in no shape at the moment but i am getting there ). But suprise suprise i wasnt the last. wahahahaha my training is starting 2 pay off abit at the early stages d. ^^. By the end of July or August we shall see. Haha, feeling really depressed for no particular reason. Will my angel cheer me up ???? I just keep on going and see how things go along. Sigh, so sad.

My trademark stuff

well, here is one of my trade mark stuff





TADAA, my pencilbox. Anyone who know or sits next to me will sure recognise this. Its 7 and 1/2 years old (got it in 2000 as a christmas present, so its freee ^^ ). If anyone doesnt reacognise this, then they dont really know me at all. You might be wondering, why are you keeping it, go change it or hey Matthew, whens your birthday, i go buy you a new pencilbox. =.= Well, i am keeping it cause i dun reallly like to throw my stuff away (its mine) and it has many memories. And i plan to use it as long as possible unless my future girlfriend gets me one hahaha but i dont see that happening anytime soon. For the record, i still haven got tetanus (my immune sistem is strong unlike sargent ah huat army haha)

The crusades begins

Well, the winds of change have arrived (literaly, it was dam windy today), and my mind is made up. I aint gonna change it(never would be a better word). I am giving it 90% of all i got (if its 100% i have to stop dota ^^) to beat the hell out of you gene harn in the trials. I will always remember u adding like 10 bloody marks and beating me. I am going all out and sacrifice some of the things i love (which aint money $$$ ) to defeat you in studies. And the crusades now begin, and i walk this lonely road on my quest for vengenge wahahahaha. We can still be fwens but u better watch your back cause YOU ARE GOING DOWN !!!!!!!!

A thousand mile journey begins

I have finally decided that starting today or monday that i will begin my quest for a better future. Its like a thousand mile journey for sucess. I will have to tread on broken glass, hot coals and chilling snow to achiece my goals but i will never give (1 thing i learned from dota). Well, my goals are
1) 70 and above for all subjects for trials ( nothing is impossible)
2) erm i aint gonna tell you all this one but if you see me maybe u can spot it ^^
3) have fun when i study (toughest goal yet but i will truimph)

I know you may think these goals are lame but they matter to me and dats the most important thing , ME wahahahaha. Girls are also important. God is also important. And you just cant forget about money $$$$. Money makes the world go round.^^ Its almost 12 and i haven finish watching One Piece so dats all for now ppl.

The penguin dance

Well today i went to CF not expecting much. Arrived there at 1.17 (13 minutes earlier than i intended.)So we had some "simulation game". Last year one was pathetic so i didnt expect much especially when i know who is the organizer. (cough cough). So wen the game started, me and my fwen went to the front to get a good view of the game. And boy was it fun. The game is u have to capture ppl( called stubborn ppl in the game) in a group of 10. The catch, all the 10 ppl legs are tied together on a short string. The ppl who have to run 1st sat on chairs and had to drag it around to move. But to make it fairer, they had 2 drag their asses (i aint the organizer). And to me, let the fun begin. ^^ Seeing girls screaming and falling down together and moving so slow and wobbly (like a penguim). Had loads of fun watching ( and laughing ) at them.^^ If the games objective is to have fun, then i am the winner.

Played dota at night (couldnt have the 3v3 antisipated match). Anyway, me, danny, melon (dunno his name, just know him as melon) and his friend vs jun yeu, ah huat and chay. Managed to win (mega creeps ^^) I feel we won cause of mostly me and there was danny there also. Played ghazier and was rich enough to buy back 3-4 times. Anyway dat was loads of fun haha.

hitz

chilling songs

Bad day

Well, thursday was a mixture of good things and bad stuff.Went home early with Gabryel cause we finish our poem dam fast. Should have gone home earlier even faster but pn. Koh ask us to rewrite.zzzzzzzzzz. (Gabryel poem was fast cause he copy me abit).

Went Jayadiri for BM but was trapped there cause of the rain (NOOOOOOOOOO !!!!). So to pass the time, me and Tiern Ern went blitz and played some NFS and O2-jam for bout 1 hour (we were soaked). Thought i lost my phone memory card but it seemed some idiot messed with my phone. Luckily for me and dat guy i found it. Grrrrrrr if the card was lost, there will be some bloodshed (seriously). Pretty bad day for me and thankfully it is over.

Angel from my nighmare

For those ppl who listen to music i got my title from blink182- i miss you. Could really sleep since school started, just dunno why (now you know why i look sleepy in the morning). Well, i am sure each one of us is looking for that special someone to make us feel complete and whole. Some ppl have found theirs, others chasing them while me, well still in doubt and confusion. Maybe thats cause i think alot bout these things but i wish to find one (wishfull thinking ) I dont think this will get me anywhere but i kinda find life a bit ironic (it makes it interesting). Cause i am pretty good at giving advice on loads of stuff even matters of the heart. Helped a few ppl using my skill-ness-ness. ^^ .However in some cases i feel even my gengness is unable to help them (i aint god). But its feels good to help ppl who matter the most to you mainly friends. Maybe this is why i wan be a psycologist (dunno wat it does actually). Anyway got the Spm to focus on (my friend reminded me of this) so i will stop questioning bout love for a while and get studdying ( soon, i am serious d). So i will walk this lonely road until that fateful day come. (hopefully sooner than later ^^)

nothing special

Nothing really special happened to me today but i will blog anyway cause i am bored. School was pretty ok especially when we got no lessons after recess cause puan lam wasnt there (dunno why, i just dun care) and puan leong was kursus-ing. So we hard free 4 periods ^^. Finished my bm in school though it took me a long time.

Went for Mrs. Tan tution (mod maths) tution today. I dunno why she was picking on me today.zzzzzz Just cause i didnt use a file she must scould me ???? Was stuck next to Jeremy (oh the horror). The stupid idiot drew a watch on his hand telling dat its time to leave ( my watch is 15 min fast so i make the other students depressed). Oh well, suffered alot having to listen to his nonsense.He will say something stupid and i will look at him like
=.= zzzzzz.

Then went walking back with Jeremy and Wei Jin (they going kesatria). Wei Jin and i were really annoyed with the psycopath following us with his lameness. Luckly i live nearby so i can escape him ( yes !!!!!!!!) but poor Wei Jin had to walk the rest of the way with Jeremy. Please pray for Wei Jin ppl. he has sufffered enough.

Homerun baby ^^

Nope i dun really play baseball but i used to wen i was really young.Anyway, this homerun means i passed all the important subjects.In other words i passed everything (haven got EST but i doubt i will fail it, though i aint sure bout Gabryel). ^^ hehe today was not too bad for me.Got 52 for physics (i know its low for physics but considering the paper was freaking hard and i sacrificed it for add maths) and got 49 for bio (dropped but its ok since i heard lot of ppl failed in Cengal. However i am pissed off when people beat me by 1 mark. DAMM YOU JING WAYE !!!!!!!!!!!!) Grrrr. English i got 80 i think (not sure how 2 count but i dropped alot sob sob). Well i think dats bout it for exams though we got EST left.

This afternoon was hell for me. Stupid TNB fixing electricity and stuff like dat.Spent all my phone battery listening to radio (my poor phone). Skipped Hebat cause i lazy go and it rained in between so i am glad i didnt go, haha. Finally the power came back so i can appreciate electricity again (not for long though cause i dun really appreciate these things though haha).

Puan Lam didnt come in today (haha freedom !!!). Did a bit of bio cause didnt finish it during hols ( lot of ppl didnt finish so spent time doing bio. SUCK DAT PPL). Haha i sound evil but its cause i have some foresight (its cool in someways but i am still am immature).

And another thing, please gabryel try be original and dun copy my blog la. Grow up la u SAS. Just be yourself (swt .....).Just started reading a new book from Danny (its bout a killer clown and its 1000 over pages). Could take some time with this Dan. Hope you enjoy Jaws though ^^. Just listening to Sean Kingston- beautiful girl and eminem- mockingbird to pass the time and just stay chilling. ^^

Back to school

It was hell to wake up in the morning.It makes me wonder what the hell i am doing getting up so early.Anyway after dragging myself to school (nooooo hols over sob sob), Puan Betty looked dam blooody ugly and Hamizam is still the same (dat aint good, i dun think she can get any worse).They talking bout hair and stuff.zzzzzz.Somethings in life dun change.

Well, no pj as usuall ( we lost interest d after so long without pj).Then came English and i got 65/75 for one of the paper *(my english rox ^^).But i got a bit supprised when she asked me to tell the class bout Jaws (what am i to say, they got a naked girl swimming on the front cover for heavens sake).Spent recess in class with ah huat (dunno y he stayed back).

I got 58(haven add books marks yet) for bm which is ok la considering my bm sux. I PASSED MY ADD MATHS.^^ WEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!(suck that johnny chew).Though i got 46 (my highest yes ^^) i was saved thanks to Gods divine help (not kidding bout this). So i would like to thank the people who prayed for me.

Sej i got 65 (kinda dissapointing since i was aiming for 70+ marks).Should study harder for it or more or rather start studying ^^ . The saddest thing i got was mod maths. I only got 85, 85!!!!!!!!!!!. By my standards that is unacceptable, i should be getting 90+. Grrrrr. Oh yeah i almost forgot. i got 58 for chemistry (its slowly increasing). Got fucked in my paper 2 (onli 41, wtf is dat man). I was saved by my paper 3 (thx gabryel and his wahyu though i owe him lunch, zzzzzz)

Anyway, i am hoping for the best. Still scared physics as the paper was freaking hard.(haha jin huat u suck, you cant beat me suck dat ^^ ). That all for now ppl, good lucky in school.If you find any cheap place to eat near school please tell me, i dont want spend too much money on Gabryel ^^

holidays are almost over

Well well, how time flies.These holidays are been boring for me and yet enjoyable in a sense that i dun really have to study.But i feel a bit sad and leftout cause every1 is going everywhere but me !!!!!! sob sob. I feel pretty depressed at sometimes but that how life is, isnt it ??? Well, i will just have to look forward though and hope for the best.

Anyway, thx to Andria i stated this blog to fill up my time. Though i might not be updated a lot in the future i will still try. Gabryel also has joined me (same reason = we r bored). Today i went to Nicklaus house to play some games (my ps2 spoil ^^, what are fwens for).Then it rained so i was stuck there 4 a while. We talked stuff and bout his trip to China (and it sounded just the way i thought it would). Oh well, still 3 hours of free ps2 and a free milo is hard 2 comeby these days so i am lucky i am his neighbour.(no, i am not taking advantage of him)

Now, i am just chilling, watching you tube and stuff and i saw the stupidest Good Charlotte song yet. (Its Wendy so wat else could u expect) . Here is the link of u wan to laugh with (or at) them http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXxO601scEw. If you are feeling bored, try my Calvin and Hobbes test to see which1 are u. A few ppl have tried it so join the crowd.^^

Ooooh JAWS !!!!!!

Today i just finished writing my book review on Jaws.Its pretty interesting and a cool book by my opinion.Just looking at the front cover makes me want to read.It is pretty complete because it doesnt focus on the shark alone but the ppl as well in the town (Amity-sounds reall interesting, NOT). Jaws is cool cause

)the details on the shark

2)the language used (not recommended for small children ^^)

3)the descriptive1 scenes (cough cough get my driff ^^ if you dont well.....)

Anyway, i will be gonna write bout some stuff dat i rediscoved in my next post. Hopefully you will enjoy it.(clue: its bout a boy and a tiger)

Oh yeah, please leave some comments cause i wanna know who is reading it.
(please dun be the ISA)

Wei Jin ooo Wei Jin

Well, this weekend pretty much sucked for me.And it all stated on sat morning. I wen to buy the papers at 9 something when suddenly i heard " hey, blacktaiko". Guess who man. Wei Jin was there. May Wern was also with him. So i was like wth is he doing here. Then i realised got the cheer practice. Poor ppl, getting up so early for these things.Then it rained a lot in the evening and i was like so fucking bored. I seriously dunno wat to do.On Sunday its bout the same but this time, the day started really really really early. I had to wake up at 6 for church.Once i came back i straight away went to sleep. Afternoon evening it rained again and again and again. zzzzzzzzzz.Sigh, stupid global warming (dun worry Wei Jin it aint your fault ). Dota at night was tough. 2v3 *(me and danny vs jin huat,chay and zhi h) Jin huat left but they broke too many of our tower. We did our best though and dat i feel was quite cool considering all things. But i still feel dat the mid creeps were 1 of our main downfall. Haha enough bout dota or i might bore you non dota players. Hopefully it doesnt rain tommorrow so i can get some stuff done up. Hmm maybe i should listen to Rihanna and Jay Z - Umbrella.

BORED !!!!!!!!

Today or rather yesterday was pretty BORING !!!!! I got nothing to do. I wanted to start RO to day but the stupid website was down the whole day so i couldnt cre8 an account. Then in the afternoon and evening it was raining so i was stuck at home.To top it all off i couldnt sleep. Later in the evening, my parents were watching the tennis open.Its quite annoying to hear them cheering for their stars. Isnt it obvious Federer will win. My only consolation is dat at night me and the belians played some mini games and dota.That was fun especially dota though it was imbalanced. Good show guys !!!! I am hopefully trying to get a Angsana vs Belian match 3v3 but it will be tough. Hopefully Chay wun be toooooooo buzy doing his stuff (cough cough i can read u Chay so dun try to lie to me) Sigh, hopefully i can get the new Gwen Stefanni song. Just aint able to download it yet but someday i will have it.

1st entry

Well ppl, this is my 1st blog so please dont laugh at it. I will make some changes when i have time and until dat time comes please bear with this. Well anyway, me and some fwens just went to see pirates of the carribean 2 days ago. Was a really good movie with lot of action and betrayel compared 2 the earlier movies. 19 ppl came. 19 !!!!!! Somehow me and chay did our best to make things work out but despite our efforts things just didnt go according 2 plan. I guessed dats life. Anyway had loads of fun and hope 2 do it again sometime. Hopefully some ppl have learnt dat inviting yourself for this things really pisses the organizers (me) off. Alot.