My red eyes

2day Ns has ended.And here i am ( even as i type ) feeling so dam depressed and even crying ( didnt happen b4 )

Its just that since i came back, there is a emptyness in everything i do.Feels a bit boring with nothing 2 do.Even after playing basketball the feeling still remains.Maybe i miss the feeling of playing bola jaring ( no b-ball court ) and footsal with my fwens and all the jokes we crack up till we spend more time lauging than actually playing.

When i bath, the F***ing cold water is missing along with the sound of ppl mandi kolam.Peh's dumb singing as well as talking rots with your shower neighbour is in the past.During dinner, there is a profound silence as each member of BBC is at their own home.No more sharing how dumb and boring ( or sumtime interesting ) the day had been as well as complaining bout the food.And no more playing "lat-tali - lat " 2 see who washes the plates.

As i enter my room, i am greeted by a dark atmosphere and silence.Aaah, those days with us guys 1/2 naked talking bout stuff and eating food is gone 4 good.

Though many of us stay nearby and can meet up but i doubt that things will ever b the same. I guess its the bond we have where we share what little food, joy and sadness together. You wont find this bond anywhere else....

Met a few ppl 2day that makes you feel the world left you behind. They say i lost weight though i feel i haven changed at all.

Sigh......

Spm results 2morrow....

and i am sad cause of Ns.............

I will keep the dog-tag with me always to remind me of the times in Ns and the great fun we had in BBC and 18.

sob sob